Sri Ramana Maharshi's Moment of Realization

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From Self-Realization by B.V. Narasimha Swami

On this page we reproduce the account of the experience which appears in the biography by Narasimha Swami.

"So, on that day as I sat alone there was nothing wrong with my health. But a sudden and umistakeable fear of death seized me. I felt I was going to die. Why I should have so felt cannot be explained by anything felt in my body. Nor could I explain it to myself then. I did not however trouble myself to discover if the fear was well grounded. I felt 'I was going to die,' and at once set about thinking what I should do. I did not care to consult doctors or elders or even friends. I felt I had to solve the problem myself then and there.

"The shock or fear of death made me at once introspective, or 'introverted'. I said to myself mentally, i.e., without uttering the words — 'Now, death has come. What does it mean? What is it that is dying? This body dies.' I at once dramatized the scene of death. I extended my limbs and held them rigid as though rigor-mortis had set in. I imitated a corpse to lend an air of reality to my further investigation, I held my breath and kept my mouth closed, pressing the lips tightly together so that no sound might escape. Let not the word 'I' or any other word be uttered! 'Well then,' said I to myself, 'this body is dead. It will be carried stiff to the burning ground and there burnt and reduced to ashes. But with the death of this body, am "I" dead? Is the body "I"? The body is silent and inert. But I feel the full force of my personality and even the sound "I" within myself, — apart from the body. So "I" am a spirit, a thing transcending the body. The material body dies, but the spirit transcending it cannot be touched by death. I am therefore the deathless spirit.' All this was not a mere intellectual process, but flashed before me vividly as living truth, something which I perceived immediately, without any argument almost. 'I' was something very real, the only real thing in that state, and all the conscious activity that was connected with my body was centred on that. The 'I' or my 'self' was holding the focus of attention by a powerful fascination from that time forwards. Fear of death had vanished at once and forever. Absorption in the self has continued from that moment right up to this time. Other thoughts may come and go like the various notes of a musician, but the 'I' continues like the basic or fundamental sruti note which accompanies and blends with all other notes. Whether the body was engaged in talking, reading or anything else, I was still centred on 'I'. Previous to that crisis I had no clear perception of myself and was not consciously attracted to it. I had felt no direct perceptible interest in it, much less any permanent disposition to dwell upon it."

Reprinted from Narasimha Swami, B.V. Self-Realization: The Life and Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi. 3rd ed. Tiruvannamalai: Sri Ramanasramam, 1996. Print.

Self-Realization: The Life and Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi

This book was for years the standard biography of Sri Ramana Maharshi. Written by a devotee and first published in 1931, long stretches of it seem to be little more than compilations of reminiscences and anecotes in circulation at Sri Ramana's ashram. The result is haphazard, credulous, and occasionally worshipful, but a sympathetic reader will find a degree of charm in this and also some nuggets of genuine meat. Despite its defects, the book is probably indispensable for readers with a strong interest in Sri Ramana.

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Sri Ramanashramam


Self-Realization: The Life and Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi

Published by Sri Ramanasramam

271 pages

ISBN-10: 8188225746

ISSBN-13: 978-8188225743

This page was published on February 4, 2014 and last revised on July 23, 2019.