Which was unusual considering
The extreme opposite. I [had not been] a lover
of people or anything else that is.
How has your relationship with your body changed?
Um. I had one, now I don't [laughs]. Um.
Just total love. Just absolutely
to ask my children to just look at these hands
how the light hit it and touched
it and just
maybe I would just ask them to
come look at my foot or something and just marvel.
It didn't matter whether it was their foot or
my foot it was
new. New. New. Took about
three years for it to even begin to balance.
And how was your relationship with your husband's
Uhhhh. [Sighs.] First time we made love
it was just amaaazing. It was radical! Cuz it
was God with God. And it was the receiving of
it and the giving ah, it was just amazing!
So how long were you in the hospital after the
In Texas they call me La Cucaracha. You know people
are not 'not kind', they're honest instead.
How long from the cockroach morning until you
walked out the door?
Oh, right away. Yeah, it was pretty scary. They
were! It was more them getting rid of me I think.
Were you medicated?
No. Not that I remember. I think not.
Had you ever been on medication?
Premarin for 13 years.
I'm trying to get a sense of, was it black and
white or did it seem like there was preparation
time and then the shift occurred? Because something
happened where you went from being in the halfway
house, drugged, you know, etc., and despairing,
to now being on drugs, I mean, seemingly, I know
you can't remember
What I know is, or what I would say is, when I
went to the halfway house I just can't remember
them medicating me at all. At all.
Oh. At all. OK. And so how long ago was this,
the event, I mean?
13 years. I think 13 years. Yeah, 1986.
Just to clarify, you describe a phase of sleeping
only three hours a night and hardly ate. Did that
Yes, it fluctuated in and out for about three
How many hours of sleep would you say you get
Has your appetite returned?