Vijai R. Subramaniyam
Oh ego, all the evils of the world are from you. To
crush you, the kings make laws and the wise give lessons.
In spite of their efforts from time immemorial, alas!
you are yet alive; you simply go into hiding and reappear
again and again. Can there be no end to you? Yea, it
is surely approaching. Another Ego has started to kill
you. It is the Universal Ego called "I am Brahman".
Eh! ego, think not that your enemy is of your kind.
You are perishable whereas He is not. You are conceited
as "I" because you always differentiate as "I", "you"
and "he," but your enemy is free from this conceit.
How? He harmonizes all differences, resolves all into
Himself. Moreover, you feel enmity towards Him because
he has arisen to kill you. But He has no ill-feelings
towards you. How is this? Because you are not to be
found in His presence. He regards you as a part of His
limbs. Your loss in his proximity is the working of
your own falsity; He would not think of killing you
because you are of no consequence in His sight. Therefore,
ego, you are His enemy, but He is not yours. More briefly
put, you are your own enemy. Why? Owing to your greed
you flaunted yourself before the Great One as you would
elsewhere. Instantly, you were lost; therefore, the
Universal Self obscures you by devouring you and then
shines forth as All-light.
Eh! ego, the evils of your works have no limits. You
are not content unless you are exalted above others
and others are lowered before you. Endless are your
desires, such as "By what title shall I gain honor?"
"In what form shall I appear elegant?" "Do others bow
to me? Do others obey me in silence?" "Do others say
that no one excels me?". Alas! How short is your life!
And yet to how much do you aspire! And how much evil
you do! You have deluded yourself that there is happiness
in such ideas and in differentiating yourself from all
others. This is not to your good. Why not? Are not others
also entitled to all these? What is your share in things
which are common to millions and millions of others?
Such being the case, do not desire in vain to rule over
all. By your vain desire you bring about evil to yourself
and to others. Listen to my friendly advice. Truly speaking,
He whom you regard as your mortal enemy is your friend.
He knows how to make you worthy of true greatness and
blessings. Surrender to Him. This Universal Ego does
not treat you as an enemy but is your greatest benefactor.
By no means can you discover what He will make of you
unless you surrender yourself to Him. However much I
may speak of it, you cannot understand. It is a matter
of experience. Doubtless He will do nothing less than
exalt you to His state. Therefore, be not perplexed
about your future; directly surrender yourself. You
can always turn away if joy does not overtake you from
the very instant of surrender. Just as the drinking
of milk starts with an agreeable taste and ends with
the satisfaction of hunger, so also surrender starts
with delight and ends with Perfect Bliss, which lies
beyond evenpleasure and pain. Therefore your goal, without
doubt, is this Universal Ego (I-am-Brahman).
What will be your new name after surrender? There is
no name besides yours. The Vedas laud you; the world
praises you; the essence of religious teachings is yourself.
Then what is your form? All forms are yours. There is
no form which is not yours. What is installed in the
temples of worship is you; what is described in the
Vedas is you; festivities and celebrations are all for
you. Now what can be your power? In your presence the
world is active; each is what it is, because of you.
Briefly said, all things glorify you and bear witness
to your being. They are duty bound to do so. You would
not have even dreamt that this will be your state. Start
at once, be not self-conceited. The Universal Ego awaits
Do you wish to wake up from your dream or continue in
it? How long will the dream images last? Be not idle,
shake off your sleep, wake up! You are witnessing your
own mental images and imagining more and more. It is
all in vain. Just find out who it is that sees the visions.
Do not delude yourself that you are these that rise
and sink in you. Wake up. The instant you wake up you
will know that waking is better than this dream. Get
up! The Universal Ego waits to rejoice at seeing you
Fear not the cessation of the present ego dream. Once
you are awake you will enjoy the same all the more.
You will no longer be deluded and will observe it with
cheerful detachment, unconfused. The folly of all appearances
will be understood and you will have no burdens. In
dream your mental imagery assumes shapes. On waking
you know the dream as just a dream. Do not mistake dream
for the waking state. Know the dream as dream. For doing
so, you must reach the state of "I-am-Brahman" (Universal
Ego) and wake from the illusion of the ego.
I have instructed you for your good and not in my own
interest. If you believe me, you should act upon what
I have taught you. On the other hand, if you see no
good in what I have said, then turn away from this ideal.
How can I help you if my advice and all the advice of
the saints do not make any impression on you? No state
is higher than this. Believe me, it is for your good
that you realize this truth; and through you others
may realize the same. Be free from self-conceit. Start
at once. Realize that the Universal Ego is your own.
Oh ego, see how you are a slave to all and therefore
suffer. How pitiable is your state! All are hostile
to you! When you say "for me only," all others will
also contend "for me only, for me only". When you say
"I am great," they protest, "Why? We are also." All
are hostile to you. Owing to the troubles caused by
others, your mental images increase a million fold.
Should you not rise above them and profit by surrendering
to a Master? Then all your enemies will befriend you.
If you say to others, "All these are yours," everyone
becomes your friend. There is only One who can make
you that magnanimous and that is "I-am-Brahman" (Universal
I shall say one word only and this is not owing to my
egoism. It is simply my duty. I do not say this word
just for your or my good alone. It is for the good of
all. The truth is "I-am-Brahman" (Universal Ego).
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page was published on May 20, 2000.