[Sri Ramana Experience]23
I have ended the confusion of my bewildered, suffering
mind. A lowly cur, I have merged with the gracious
feet of my Master. In the surging brilliance of
his divine wisdom's splendour the broad ocean
of deadly desires has disappeared completely.
The dark prison which bound my tortured soul crumbled
and I became his servant, finding joyous life
in the open sky of his ambrosial grace. The knot
which locked my spirit to my physical body was
sundered by the bright sword of my Master's glance
and was no more.
I was a learned fool. My flawed mind knew nothing
till I came to dwell with Him whose glance filled
my heart with the light of awareness. Dwelling
in that gracious state of peace, whose nature
is holy silence, so hard to gain and know, I entered
into union with the deathless state of the knowledge
As the deadly delusion of a body-bound ego faded,
a flower of pure light unfolded at his holy feet.
That radiance grew ever brighter with my love
until I realised the flawless knowledge of the
Self, manifesting as the unbroken awareness 'I-I'
within my heart.
He became one with my very soul, the Supreme Lord,
the flawless Brahman, the life of all that is,
the jewel of the Self, turning my soul's night
to day with the fulsome rays of true wisdom's
The confusion of the senses ended and the world's
illusion was dispelled as grace's bright sun rose,
absorbing me in itself and obliterating all distinctions.
And as I entered the light of a life lived in
the holy silence of the glorious non-dual state,
the 'I' and all that arises from it subsided and
I was wandering deluded in the mind's labyrinth
of dreams, rushing hither and thither, desiring
one thing then another until the joy of union
with the Lord welled up within me. My body merged
into the infinite light of divine wisdom and my
heart was filled with a deep inner tranquillity.
Corrupted by the senses' defilement, yet was I
drawn by the light of the Self which shone in
your eyes so that I conceived a great love for
you. With melting heart, like a cow with a young
calf, I remain a supplicant at your feet, which
hold the twin rewards of birth and final liberation.
Unquenchable, the lamp of grace and true knowledge
burns at his holy feet. Through his gentle smile,
where grace's flower blooms, I have renounced
and abandoned the ties of kith and kin and I have
placed myself beneath those bounteous feet, grasping
He is the teacher of the eternal law through whose
glance the truth unfolded, filling my heart with
the dazzling radiance of his blissful consummate
grace, so that the body, ego and intellect were
all no more. I became merged in the divine silence,
which is the abiding knowledge of Lord Siva.
A noble lion, he fixed the victorious gaze of
true knowledge upon the rutting elephant of my
ego, which was drunk with self-conceit, filling
me with the sweet nectar of union with Lord Siva,
so that the inner experience of divine wisdom
became my whole existence.
I was bound for destruction through my disastrous
attachment to the world's illusory reality until,
under my fair Lord's gracious gaze, my understanding
was flooded with the delightful experience of
Lord Siva's bliss, and I entered a new life in
the boundless realm of holy silence.
Through the light of enquiry into the nature of
the Self, which is true spiritual practice, and
through the precious words of my teacher, who
is established in the state of holy silence wherein
liberation has its origin, my soul has tasted
the nectar of union with Lord Siva in the state
of bliss beyond duality, merging into the all-transcending
oneness of his grace.
Deeply absorbed in the state of holy silence which
reality's perfect light illumines, filled with
the exaltation of the non-dual state, my consciousness
merged with the Lord and I became one with Him,
winning the greatest reward of all, to dwell in
final bliss, beyond birth and death.